SUCCESS!

After all of these years, I have finally reached my goals. I want to tell you all how amazing it feels and give you this huge, detailed post…. but all I have to say is, I feel good. It is not quite as big of a deal as I expected it to be… It’s more simple than I thought. Life is good!!

I’m moving in about a week. I think I might be ready. But am I ready to go to school at a new school for the first time ever, at the end of August?? Can I get even better before then? I think so! If you want to follow me on that, email me at big.changes@rocketmail.com (or my Comcast account if I’ve sent that to you personally) and I’ll give you the link to my new blog that will be starting up soon. Thanks.

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BLUNT

Between me and an ex-friend: So I messed up, who doesn’t? Besides, you were at fault as much as me, if not more so. I apologized, I acted with respect and maturity; you did not. I tried to mend the torn fabric, but you just tore it even more. I tried to let it go, leave it behind without trashing it with hatred and sore feelings; you wouldn’t let it happen. You chucked the material into the garbage, treated me like dirt, and you had no right to do so. It was pathetic of you, and I wonder if you’ll ever have a single true friend in your life, any confidence, any beauty, anything….or will you always have nothing and have nobody to blame but yourself?

Between me and a small group: All those years, you never cared, never accepted. And you think I’m going to believe that you care now, just because I’m leaving? You’re full of shit! Ya’ll are a bunch of hypocritical jerks. Did you know you’re the reason we’re leaving? We’re leaving our home, the one we’ve been in for over fifteen years, because of your idiocy. How does it feel to be the cause of such a thing? Do you finally feel guilty? You should. You screwed over my entire family, so screw you.

Between me and illness: Why me? Why did you choose to attack me? I feel drained, tired, and in pain all of the time. I’m on a waiting list to see one of the best doctors in the state, and the earliest I can possibly get in is two months away. Do you know what it’s like to live like this for two months? Do you know what pain you’re causing when you host people? I don’t understand why this is happening, I’ve always been so healthy….

Between me and God: Heavenly Father, do you really love me? Deep down, I know the answer is yes, but I still can’t help asking. Why is all of this happening to my family? If it were just me, it’d be hard but not too bad. But it’s happening to all of us, why? We don’t deserve this bomb that has been dropped. However, I think it’s only right to admit that there are hundreds of people out there that have it worse than I do. I appreciate that, and I wish I could save the world from all the illness and heartache. But how can I possibly help somebody else when I can’t even help myself? Well, perhaps I’m being dramatic…. I have made some progress, but I’ve also gotten worse in some ways. I wish this battle will end. However, it not my will; it is yours. Thy will be done. I love you, and I am grateful for every blessing I have and thank you for all that is good in my life and pray it gets better and not worse. This is my rambly prayer. Amen.

Between me and my beautiful followers: I know how bad it hurts, how tempting it is to give up and waste away. But we simply cannot do that. We must stay on task, show God that we are worthy and that we are willing to pass the test, that we won’t give in to the Devil’s influence. Ladies, it’s time to end this suffering. It has gone on for way too long. We keep saying we’ll stop it, but we still haven’t. Let’s say it again…once more…make it final, and never need to say it again. Let’s end this suffering and gain the confidence and beauty we have always yearned to have. We can never have something worthwhile that we don’t work for, yes? Then let’s get back to work.

For those of you who have been asking: I’ve improved and made progress in some areas, fallen behind in others, and I feel like a mess… The good news is, I probably have until July 7 or 8 until I have to leave and absolutely have to be done. So I’ll make the new deadline July 1. I hope to reach my goals before then, but I think that’s a safer goal. Anyway, I haven’t had time to update my pages, but I will try to do that within the next few days. Tomorrow I’ll get back on schedule, for real this time. This time, and I sure hope this is the last time I have to say this, I will work harder than ever before and actually make my dreams reality. We can all make this our goal, let’s all start again tomorrow. A fresh, new day to make bigger, better changes so we can be better people.

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CHANGING

So, the last few days have been super crazy. I’ve been baby-sitting a lot, which has messed up my evening beauty/fitness routine. I have also had to go to some family stuff, and some medical appointments. This week should be way better. I’ll be more free, have more time to work on what I need to and make some big changes.

Actually, I’m changing. Over the last few days, I’ve tried to sort my priorities a bit better. I have found myself becoming more understanding and patient, and more careless–but in a good way. For example, I used to be addicted to Internet use because I felt like it was kind of an escape. When one of my friends didn’t email me back quick or something, it would totally disappoint me. I am more understanding as to why it might take a while to reply, and I’m more patient–and frankly, I don’t even care very much! I don’t need to depend on others anymore; I’m independent. Another example is, I am more rounded. I’m not focused one particular thing. I used to be obsessed with weight loss. Now, I care about a lot of things and work on them, but not obsessively and not on one thing. I am changing, becoming the person I want to be. And it’s only going to get better and better, I am improving day by day.

Tomorrow, I will be able to get back on  more normal routine, which will make improvement even easier. Here I go, on my way to beautiful perfection! I am getting to that wonderful balance!

*Don’t forget to check out other posts and pages if interested

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IDEAL BALANCE

Perfection is a hard word to achieve, but it’s possible and this is the key to it: balance. You see, you don’t have to have a perfect body or perefect nails to be perfect. You just need a great body, decent nails, beautiful hair, pretty skin, etc. Not every aspect of the appearance or attitude needs to be perfect; instead, every aspect needs to be better than okay. And if one or two parts are amazing, that just makes it all that much better. For example, if you have a thin figure that’s good, but if you have acne then you’re still not super pretty. There needs to be ‘good’ or better in all you do, never settle for less. But that doesn’t mean that everything has to be absolutely perfect. Chill in the balance! Get it? What I am trying to reach is ideal balance.

*Please check out my other pages on the blog for updates on progress, and see previous posts (especially my first shown on the blog) for more details if you are interested

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PRETTY GIRL

I had a photoshoot today. It’s my first one of the summer! I’ve lost eight pounds since the last shoot, and it’s a noticeable difference; not dramatic, but noticable and it makes me feel amazing. Plus, my hair cut (I got it cut yesterday!) looks super cute! It is definitely the best cut I’ve ever gotten. It is so gorgeous and I absolutely love it! My skin looked so good in the pictures. I just can’t believe what progress I have made, and what a huge difference it has made in my appearance and confidence! And to think that I’m still improving, and will be perfect in just a another week or two!! It’s incredible, I couldn’t be much happier! Who knew I could be a pretty girl?!

*If you are new to this blog, please check out my first post, and see my additional pages to see more on my progress and goals

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REACHING PERFECTION

Hello, I am a sixteen-year-old girl with a vision of perfection. I have been working on and off for months to reach my goals (outer beauty, inner beauty, talents, intelligence, everything) and make my vision reality. I have good news: I am almost there, reaching perfection!

My family has been planning on moving for seven or eight months now. We’ll move to a a gorgeous home in an adorable town. I am excited, but a bit nervous because I have not yet tied up all of the loose ends. I still have some goals to accomplish.

Originally, my family was going to move on June 17. Today, we learned that we may not be able to move in until July (the 6 or 7, probably). I was disappointed, yet relieved at the same time. I have more than enough time to reach all of my goals and make my dreams my real life!

I have already made a lot of progress, and have been blogging about it on and off for months. Well, for the next couple of weeks, I will just perfect myself until everything is just right. I don’t really have a specific deadline as of right now, I simply have general goals and ideas that I hope to achieve before the move (within the next two to four weeks). Before wrapping up this post, I just want to say thanks to my viewers who have been patient and supportive through my stressful situation! I hope ya’ll continue to follow my blog until I am ready to move on. I also hope that you can all reach your goals, too, and move on to bigger and better things!

As I finish up my journey, I will be posting on here as regularly as possible. I would promise daily posts if I could, but I have had so many computer problems as well as family and medical problems that I’m not sure if I could keep such a promise. However, I will definitely try to continue posting often and keep you all up to date on my progress. I’ll send out emails to my consistent followers if there is any huge change in my plans. You, this blog, and this journey I am on are what I am most focused on right now! This means everything to me, and thank you so much for taking the time to read this!

*If you are new to this blog, please read: the original post “Reaching Perfection,” as well as my three additional pages on this blog, and thanks for your interest.

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